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Thursday, April 29, 2010

"A Wide Angle"::::


The first time i saw her was in a newspaper Ad.She had a bright smile even in an old and battered black n white photograph.But there was that smile radiating out to my eyes and laughing at my dumbness of staring at them.I couldnt get over that feeling.That stinking gut wrenching & nerve wrecking feeling called infatuation.Honestly,that day i was not feeling anything but numbness in my
                                  Her forehead shone through the parting curtains of her curly hair & her inhibitant smile shone through he photograph revealing the very kind of person that she must be: very jovial,intelligent,witty yet kind.
                  That first impression of her left me craving for more info about her.She felt like an arcane companion,that long forgotten friend ,that age old partner who you have missed all these years and who has now come to fore.
     Yet the presence of this person eludes me.What i fail to understand is why my mind and heart seeks the unknown,the uninitiated,the unlikely.Its a great puzzle as to how our heart opens up avenues which are not visible or are unfathomable to our brain.Anyways as time passed by unaware of the festering longing within me ,i started anticipating a chancely meeting.The way the heart works is that it drags you down the abyss of fantasies which show their ugly head intermittently and renders one useless.The way the mind works is that it makes you believe that your only motto in life is not to fall for these fantasies and be practical which again leaves one overworked without any incentive and in all practicality useless!
                                     So i figured it out how to strike perfect balance between these two evilmongers.Never think too much about your mind,let it be..and never be too caring about how your heart feels ..let it be ...So i havent relinquished the idea that this girl can be the perfect match to my life but i am neither living in daydreams building air castles.To me love is not a strange phenomenon ,its just a unexplained one.Its like the question about life and death one feels like after death ...but when one is dead ..death is unexpained...similarly till the time love is not part of your life it remains an enigma..a strange feeling of light ethereal rain that just carasses you without touching you ,a strange zephyr that gives you gooseflesh ,a beautiful serenade dream that is best left tethered to the chains of your sleep.
So i have allowed my heart to flutter for this special lass but only on the condition that it doesnt cross the realms of my influence.I am sure for many out there its the test of patience to not to give up on one thing in lieu of other but believe me life is willing to give you the complete basket of goodies spruced  up with additional paraphernalia.

Saturday, April 24, 2010


Just the right Ingredients:::

fine! Its not right .Nothing is right.Even I accede to this fact.The daily events that sap the energy out of we poor souls arent the ones we`ll be speaking about with vigour 20-30 years down the line.True!that we all feel that the grass is greener on the other side,but the grass is of absolutely no color this side ,its dead grass which even doesnt respond to a strong zephyr.Thats how u feel sometimes isnt it??
                       But what constitutes the perfect mix?We all feel that something`s amiss.We all feel sad for the cause of unknown.We all revel in our misery.The perfect mix,the magic ingredient,the panacea,the placebo is all one ::time.
       Those who are short of time are not able to correct their fast watches and those who swim in this fleeting element called time dont watch.But time lingers on ,giving us ample opportunity to improve,succeed,fight our demons,enjoy,ponder et al.
                          "" the timely watching of time at a time that is not a bad time is nothing but timing that is imbued in the timeless clock if prehistoric time.""
                                  When somebody says:do it fast,what do they mean?It just is a way of saying to someone that the overlap of the times is loosening & the time will drift away if one doesnt hasten.Human beings have a tendency to overmine the fleeting nature of time & put themselves  under the bondage of deadlines and repercussions.Quality of time,whether at work or with family/friends is at premium & demands ones complete time ....

Friday, April 2, 2010

My view on life....

Taking the risk to the extent of sounding aggrandizing and aggravating ,i would say that it has been a long time since i felt freedom.That unshackled gaiety ,that unfretted frivolity ,that mindless expedition into the abyss of nothingness is not there.The more i think over this the more i feel claustrophobic.I want to break free.Still entwined in the worldly pursuits, life has now donned  the clothes of a chimera , deceiving; setting contraptions;illusioning  the thought process that gets rid of this smoke filled walk-through.
                                                                                   Now its time! I felt it yesterday,i felt it the day before and the day before that too!!The force of reckoning is in motion.The wheels of change have felt the whip of rotation.The destiny that was clouded in vagueness now is set to shine in all its resplendence.What is rejuvenating is the autonomy that has  been lost in the dungeons of time.Is it not the all i ever wanted ?probably ...
                                      My family ,friends and foes all alike are witnesses of this sea change.Maybe they will be the ones who will carry out the baptism..maybe even by fire .Should need arise, i may seek divine help but for the time being its the mortal world i am pinning my hopes on.Given the ample scope of operation ,it will require a gargantuan effort.
                                                          Just as i wish to continue to be a master of circumstance rather than the victim of it, i look back ! taking the essence of life at its very inception ,i wonder at the humble beginning that the life offers.It caters to the whims and fancies of those who wish to play with the master of the game ,viz destiny.The game of life is one where the odds are stacked heavily against you, with the dices being thrown as the portendors of the coming times.Taking nothing away from the setting that we all are in ,the life today is full of anarchic elements.So one has to be at his/her scintillating best and display a "never to do anything that dies" attitude to counter the life sucking vortex of time and come up trumps.

Random Musings...