Showing posts from April, 2010

"A Wide Angle"::::


The first time i saw her was in a newspaper Ad.She had a bright smile even in an old and battered black n white photograph.But there was that smile radiating out to my eyes and laughing at my dumbness of staring at them.I couldnt get over that feeling.That stinking gut wrenching & nerve wrecking feeling called infatuation.Honestly,that day i was not feeling anything but numbness in my
                                  Her forehead shone through the parting curtains of her curly hair & her inhibitant smile shone through he photograph revealing the very kind of person that she must be: very jovial,intelligent,witty yet kind.
                  That first impression of her left me craving for more info about her.She felt like an arcane companion,that long forgotten friend ,that age old partner who you have missed all these years and who has now come to fore.
     Yet the presence of this person eludes me.What i fail to understand is why my mind and heart seek…


Just the right Ingredients:::

fine! Its not right .Nothing is right.Even I accede to this fact.The daily events that sap the energy out of we poor souls arent the ones we`ll be speaking about with vigour 20-30 years down the line.True!that we all feel that the grass is greener on the other side,but the grass is of absolutely no color this side ,its dead grass which even doesnt respond to a strong zephyr.Thats how u feel sometimes isnt it??
                       But what constitutes the perfect mix?We all feel that something`s amiss.We all feel sad for the cause of unknown.We all revel in our misery.The perfect mix,the magic ingredient,the panacea,the placebo is all one ::time.
       Those who are short of time are not able to correct their fast watches and those who swim in this fleeting element called time dont watch.But time lingers on ,giving us ample opportunity to improve,succeed,fight our demons,enjoy,ponder et al.
                          "" the timely watching of time…

My view on life....

Taking the risk to the extent of sounding aggrandizing and aggravating ,i would say that it has been a long time since i felt freedom.That unshackled gaiety ,that unfretted frivolity ,that mindless expedition into the abyss of nothingness is not there.The more i think over this the more i feel claustrophobic.I want to break free.Still entwined in the worldly pursuits, life has now donned  the clothes of a chimera , deceiving; setting contraptions;illusioning  the thought process that gets rid of this smoke filled walk-through.
                                                                                   Now its time! I felt it yesterday,i felt it the day before and the day before that too!!The force of reckoning is in motion.The wheels of change have felt the whip of rotation.The destiny that was clouded in vagueness now is set to shine in all its resplendence.What is rejuvenating is the autonomy that has  been lost in the dungeons of time.Is it not the all i ever wanted ?probably…