Saturday, May 29, 2010

Let there be light ...

A Day Without a Night to Awake...
A Night with no light today... 


I am falling.The lights fading.Everything is a blur of racing images and flying past visions of horrifying pasts.Then my mind is suddenly bookmarked to that one incident.
And i start crying ....

The mind plays tricks of its own.It kept telling me to give upon it and suddenly i received the nerve tingle to go ahead and do it.So unusual!So very bemusing!I was so close to it,i also wanted it,but i was rendered handless and possibly mindless too!The glory days were numbered,i knew it..i had a hunch.
    Starting in a retrospective mood ,my mind wanders..Am i in a dream?Is this real? can`t be..then again ..the air i am inhaling is the same,imbued with the waft of salt from the nearby sea,the sight is known,the act well versed with all the soliloquoys known beforehand as if rehearsed since eternity.Still i cant make the difference, maybe its not a dream afterall,maybe i am inside my mind only,searching ,gnawing,surfing the thought waves for that tiny known detail which will tell my disposition.
                Something wakes me from my reverie.The day is up,the night is gone,the confusion washed away, the muddled brain revving up the logical engines.I tell myself to believe it.To soak in the brilliance,to revel in the revelry,to assiduously give pleasure bouquet to my heart whilst i can.The hope hiking to the summit meets the downgoing despair.Having suddenly found my voice,i choke at the prospect.There is so much to do,have lost so much.Plethora of opportunities start mailing their curriculum vitae,but i have lost the zeal to hire.Then i know what it takes to bite more than you can chew.I was suddenly thrown into a magic box with all my wishes already fulfilled and granted.Busy as a bumblebee i start collecting trophies,i start garnering all the goodies with both my hands.
            Fortunes swing! I know about the cycle!It will turn again!But till that time let me know no limits,let me get lost,let me not know my miseries,let me be oblivious to the fallacies that have stared in my eyes with their huge mocking eyes.

         There`s no light today.All is pitch black.My eyes are rummaging in the darkness.But my heart is alit.The hope that was kindled still burns.The guiding light restrains me from putting the reins on the dark horse ,instead goading me to try the new white beast.I ask a question!I was not born that way,was I?I evolved into something alien.But the alien isnt flashing a gun,instead it is equipped with two antennas that sonar the path of wisdom.Now i am not bound.I look at myself and see a reflection that smiles back.The teeth grinding has been dealt with.Instead they let the lips part away to let the light reflect of them.
                    
 Looking at the newfangled sun,my eyes secrete water.The sun in all its radiance is a menacing opposition.Tasting success once and calling success your staple food should logically be in different languages.The crown is a burden.The throne a bed of venemous snakes.Unleashing potential and leashing your mind over the euphoria arent exactly a recipe of a novice chef.Emmersed in all sparkle,i wait to let the humility take the shine and store it in the right place, in reserves,to be used later in times of distress.
Lesson learnt,i saunter with pride.
                      I am awoken!! not to the light, neither by the night , but to myself.....      
              

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