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Thursday, April 29, 2010

"A Wide Angle"::::


The first time i saw her was in a newspaper Ad.She had a bright smile even in an old and battered black n white photograph.But there was that smile radiating out to my eyes and laughing at my dumbness of staring at them.I couldnt get over that feeling.That stinking gut wrenching & nerve wrecking feeling called infatuation.Honestly,that day i was not feeling anything but numbness in my
                                  Her forehead shone through the parting curtains of her curly hair & her inhibitant smile shone through he photograph revealing the very kind of person that she must be: very jovial,intelligent,witty yet kind.
                  That first impression of her left me craving for more info about her.She felt like an arcane companion,that long forgotten friend ,that age old partner who you have missed all these years and who has now come to fore.
     Yet the presence of this person eludes me.What i fail to understand is why my mind and heart seeks the unknown,the uninitiated,the unlikely.Its a great puzzle as to how our heart opens up avenues which are not visible or are unfathomable to our brain.Anyways as time passed by unaware of the festering longing within me ,i started anticipating a chancely meeting.The way the heart works is that it drags you down the abyss of fantasies which show their ugly head intermittently and renders one useless.The way the mind works is that it makes you believe that your only motto in life is not to fall for these fantasies and be practical which again leaves one overworked without any incentive and in all practicality useless!
                                     So i figured it out how to strike perfect balance between these two evilmongers.Never think too much about your mind,let it be..and never be too caring about how your heart feels ..let it be ...So i havent relinquished the idea that this girl can be the perfect match to my life but i am neither living in daydreams building air castles.To me love is not a strange phenomenon ,its just a unexplained one.Its like the question about life and death one feels like after death ...but when one is dead ..death is unexpained...similarly till the time love is not part of your life it remains an enigma..a strange feeling of light ethereal rain that just carasses you without touching you ,a strange zephyr that gives you gooseflesh ,a beautiful serenade dream that is best left tethered to the chains of your sleep.
So i have allowed my heart to flutter for this special lass but only on the condition that it doesnt cross the realms of my influence.I am sure for many out there its the test of patience to not to give up on one thing in lieu of other but believe me life is willing to give you the complete basket of goodies spruced  up with additional paraphernalia.

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