Sunday, August 8, 2010

Wondering When The Wistful Wishes Will Woosh!....

Maybe! Just Maybe!!




Your wish!!Saying this I accede to her demands.I am a slave.I thought I wasnt!But the clamps lost their keys on me ever since I first saw my own reflection in her reddish brown retinas.What`s been going on isn`t what you wish for.

Time isn`t a dimension anymore.Its no more a mirage,its marriage of all your deeds with all your wishes.I searched for it!For her!For the fleeting moistness in the eyes,for that glint!,for that cherry picked cheeks that bloom everytime her lips part in a smile.Maybe I`ve found what I was looking for.I can`t be sure though.Not till I wake up from this reverie.

Lets look at the situation with a bird`s eye view.I am a fool.And a smart one at that too.Looking for the vital signs.I meandered ,I philadered.To throw some sand in the gears,I paused.Never pushed the diving board down.Maybe I was confused.More silly than what others thought.More sadist than what others believed.Less lucky than what others surmised.Cocky as I was,I was served well.My better half was not even halfway through the carpet when I gave upon the pedestal.Being impatient was always a blunder,being patient a crime.I chose the blunder.My Wish!Granted!!

Look at my back!All hunched and nicely boned,but turns out to be a cropper when I am faced with change.Hope is not a worthy companion.Luck is someone who is either after you or before you,in a race with you but never with you.The binary language of "IFs" and "BUTs" burden your tounge & psyche.I dream!Always!!...........but in vain.

The saccharin that is success eventually takes you out by having you diabetic.The quinine that is defeat lures you,all veiled up in the splendence of the impossible.I rest on my laurels.All the while!!......to my chagrin.

The dirt around me blinds me.I become a sopper for others dirt.The valium of my filter slowly looses its sheen as I go on mellifluosly playing and paying dirt.The green planet never was green.No good being inert.Take sides.Be polarised!!I`ve realised this maxim.Alas!!...........too late.

Decision to bind me was mine,to hold me back was of my mind`s creation.To keep the glitterati at bay,the call came from the pumping lump of blood veined in my left chest cleft.This is my progeny.The state is created with my consent.Frankensteined!!,I stand reading hymnes/verses from the bible as the monster was being earthed.I am the dead in the coffin,I am the undertaker,I was the murderer and I am also the one who shed crocodile tears on my back.Tears well up in my eye sockets!All for myself!!..........how selfish.

The backburner now being burned to cinders,the depenndence now facing a no-trust vote,the meandering mind tethered firmly to my realities,I veer away.To warm the cockles,I will tread on the path that I see light coming from!........just in time.

Once again my beloved calls me! From the deep forest of chestnut trees,so dense that she is all but invisible.I believe in her,the voice yearning for the resonance tone,I cry out!!!



This time though with my waking eyes.....And thank god for that.

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